Say goodbye.

Say goodbye.'Byebye, baby.''I feel like seeing -censored- again.''One more time, my whole life no regret alr.'I never knew God heard me.But he never knew what ending I asked for..---God made us talk again.Though it was only for 21 days before everything reverts back.But God wasn't tht bad afterall.Out of th 21 days..I think I met you like, 10 times or something?3 tons.I think..I thank God for those days.For I've no regrets now.I'm not gna ask for more.'Cuz it was more than enough.Though now I'm kinda afraid of people and things tht I lost coming back ._.Cuz I'm afraid of being hurt again?Disappointments, or, whatever.Lol.---只要一闭上眼睛总有千百万个你你的影子装满我的脑海里不能够不想你也不能够忘记你总是在梦里一直看到你多想对你说句我是真的爱你对我的心不要再怀疑好想牵你的手走过风风雨雨有什么困难我都陪著你直到天长地久直到天荒地老爱的路上只有我和你---給我一杯忘情水~~~換我一夜不流淚~~所有真心真意, 任它雨打風吹~付出的愛收不回.. ~給我一杯忘情水~~換我一生不傷悲~就算我會喝醉, 就算我會心碎~不會看見我流淚~---And I think people like tuh leave me, breaking their promise.(Y)I love you guys.You all break your promises like free flow milo.Funfair or themepark?Limpeh nice tuh con sibo?Born tuh let you gah one sibo?Fucking cunt faces.-'- Fuck ni ma de la hor.---Remember th post I posted,Full of what I love and miss about you?I really do.There're more now.Lol.I shall not post it.Well, nothing's in my head now anyway.Empty, blank, vac.Idk.Nothing is coming out of my mind now, LOL.---I was wrong all these while.Blasting technos and trance whn I'm feeling like crap.I must get back tuh what I was..Whn I listened tuh peaceful melodies.They calm me down so much better.My all time favourite, Pie Jesu.Since, years ago.(: ♥---Th first friend,Tht ever hurt me THT badly.Even after a year, I remember it so clearly.How I see you stabbing me in my back.Had never told anyone how sad I actually was.I wasn't really angry lol.I hated you.Thn I forgot about it.At times I do think of you,Stalk your blog.Slowly, having no idea how,I found your twitter, facebook, etc.LOL..It wasn't my fault, but you made tht whole thing seemed like my fault.You deleted my msn, blocked me.Everything la.It was supposed tuh be done by me :@Ha.Xin tai ruan.Can't bear tuh leave you.At times I think of you, I remember how much I hated you.But just a thought at how much we had those months,Just one, single, thought.Every anger within me just vanished.Nearing tuh th days before we talked again,I missed you especially much.Straight 3/4 days, keep miss, madness.I had no idea why too.I was thinking, tht few days.I added your facebook, and you fucking accepted.OMFG. I jitao shocked die ._.Thn afew days later, I saw you following my twitter..And I had this feeling, tht if I want you back,I'd have tuh do something, cuz now it's my turn again.See it? I add your fb, you follow my twitter, LOL.But since I know you blocked my msn, adding you won't help,I twitted you.But you cheebai, never reply, noob :@Which was what made me angry and starting throwing 3 year old tantrum on twitter.And omfg you twitted me.DAMN I SUCCEEDED IN ATTRACTING YOUR ATTENTION.Heh :PIt was almost th happiest night of my life tht night.Sometimes I wondered if I really fell for you in th past.But I seriously didn't realise la :@And...Y'know what?I seriously did fell for you NOW,And realised it straight away.Th night whn we first chatted again on th phone,I had this strong feeling tht it's gna be you.And yea, mfccb, it was you.I'd missed you till I cried.Idk why lol.Siao ding dong eh? Laughs.Days whn I called you tuh talk, and bombed my phone bill bomb lol.I'll be so broke, cuz I need tuh pay for it lol.Guess it was all worthed it? Lol.Sometimes will wake up, missing you like crazy.Lol.Travel 1 hour, see you for 2 hours, travel home 1 hour.(Y)I've never done this kinda thing before, lol.Sometimes out of th 2-3 hours, we weren't even talking for quite.. Long.Lol.It's either you resting, or I stoning ._.Laughs.Lol.Cheebai.I just saw Secret's video and remembered you tap me and poked my cheek -.-Rolleyes.Laughs.I loved how you always sit beside me on a bus trip,How we always sat together, almost everytime, almost..I still remembered how you stuff your stupid head intuh my face while walking,Cuz you say your hair very xiang, wtf.And your stupid head hit until my nose :@HAHA.Aiya, alot la siak.Lol.Forget it.Idw end up listing a whole lot of it, lol.Whatever it is,If things for you goes back tuh afew months back,I'll never step intuh tht area again.Well maybe whn I'm fine?(:Just know tht you're th first one tht I've ever loved this much.And this long.I've took around a year tuh forget someone.But th love was getting lesser, shallower.For you? Lol.It was all th way love -.-Laughs.Th letters I wanted tuh give you, I'm gna throw it away.I see no point anyway.I don't even dare tuh go down anymore.I go down = Loner pbt .LMAO .Don't you realise I always go down cuz I wna see you ?Cuz I wna spend every moment I can with you ?And you're th one I talk tuh th most .Now without you , what's th point of going down anymore ?Being a loner at home is far much better .Laughs .I shall continue soon in another post .Gna go out for breakfast , it's 5.38pm .Leaving at 6pm .No appetite , sigh .And guess semo !This morning , I woke up !Tuh cry . LOL .(Y)Bye .---And forget about your words .You said you won't disappoint me again .But you did .Oh well .And , I'm motherfucking sorry people ,SORRYS DON'T WORK ON ME .-_-Don't stab me in my heart and pull it out , telling me you're sorry .No use .Sorrys don't stop th blood from flowing .They don't help in healing .And it definitely leaves a scar .I will.I always will.Please remember tht.I'll be waiting for you, somehow.Maybe perseverence doesn't help, but who cares.Lol.---And tht's karma for me, and karma for you, and karma, for us all.Falling in love is a karma now.It's no longer something blissful.LMAO.I like! (L)