Idk what should I put as a title ._.

Sie töteten mich.It's like a dream, yet so painful.Neh.I had lots of things tuh say.....But as usual la,My rubbish pattern...Now mind blank again.LMAO.Anyway, a pic before I went off tuh vivo days ago.And this pic, took today.Random pic in kitchen, with my dinner.Rawrszxc!---I've something tuh tell afew people.I know it's probably th worst shit ever.Like wtfuck.They'll probably feel weird if they ever see this.Well I certainly hope they don't, ever see it.But somehow I just need somewhere tuh say these stuffs.I'm sorry, I've gone mad, somehow.Heh.Dedications tuh 3 person.Don't bother reading.It won't concern you.Lol.Tuh my mum:'Everytime whn I feel sad, or moody, etc,I will not even have th mood tuh give a short response.But whnever I see my mum,Or rather, whnever I'm sad,I tend tuh go over tuh my mum's room and look for her.Be it just tuh sit there and watch some show with her,Or, whatever.I just smile and cheer up instantly.Nobody has ever done tht tuh me.My mother, is like my everything.Without her, I think I alr died.Whn everybody has given up on me,My mum didn't.She gave me chances over and over again,Just hoping I will learn from my mistakes.I thank her alot, but I dare not tell her.Damn paiseh one ar, heh.So many things happened these few years.Ups and downs.I bet most of my friends only know about how 'bad' my mum is tuh me?Cuz I only complain about how she attitude me, etc..I've never twitted or say about how good she treats me,And stuffs.Just like how people blame God for bad life,But had never thanked God for their happy times.Hahahaha.Not gna elaborate much,But main point is...All I'm gna do now,Is all for her (:'Tuh my sister:'I didn't really bother about my sister, like, yeah...Yeahh.. We have awesome times together.But at certain period of time in my life,I don't really care about her.LOL..But ever since she decided tuh go tuh USA for 3 months,I sticked tuh her everyday and night.Stay in her room until I fall asleep ._.Thn whn she left for USA, I'm lika sad ):Lonely life laaaaa.Heh.But things got better, thn slowly never care again, LOL.Come tuh think of if,Since young, everytime I got problem,I approach my sister first :x Heh.She's like my saviour!!Like for dk how many million times alr!I love my sister liao la! :D HEH.'And..Tuh th man who I've never mentioned most of th time.My dad.Some people even thought tht I was from a single-parent family~See how much I mention my dad.Hahahaha.Dad, though you've alr given up on me,Like don't really give a shit about me and stuffs.Things I've done this few years disappointed you alot.I know.Who doesn't know?People all scolded me, tried tuh wake me up.But I didn't.Now I alr did.Trying tuh do th things tht I should do,So you can 'regain' hope on me again.---Anyway been chionging Hu jiao da ming xing~KIDNAP SCENE LEY!!!DE XIN JI SMART, MADLOVES!!!!---Cb!!!!I accidentally screwed my post below.FUCK.---Anw I just puked.Wtf.-_-Red stuffs and lots of water.Starting I shocked, why red.End up remember is taiwan sausage LOLOL.Gek until eyes teary and red like mad.Throat super pain.Stomach damn screwed.My stomach really got problem ZZZZ.Ohwell, I screwed it up myself, my bad.Haaa.---Anw I'll try tuh recall what I typed..I said tht..Things, sometimes, start and end, for th same reason.Like, eg.You know A cuz of B.Like, know A through B.Thn y'know, stop contacting A cuz of B too.Something like tht la.Thn, like.I suck at clean cuts.Like really.Taurus are mad afraid of changes as well.But I'm gna be different.I'm gna be flexible.For once.Just for myself.I want a peaceful life.Awesome life.Just an average, normal life.A life tht everybody leads.Sometimes stupid quarrels between friends crops up,But it'll eventually be solved and things go back tuh th same again.I'm gna master clean cut-ing skills, LOL.What english is this, ah I don't give a shit la.LOL.Anw.I've decided tuh keep everything tuh myself,And move on in life.Go back tuh life tht I was leading.I rather be lonely, and bored,Than life with lots of problems.And fears.Sleeping with fears, waking up in pain and being afraid.I don't like tht feeling.It feels like I'm not myself.It's not good.And,I asked a friend something quite some time ago.I asked if she'll choose Family or Friendship.She told me Family; It's always there.I agreed, almost immediately, I might say.But I wasn't sure what tuh do.Cuz it wasn't just Friendship at tht point of time.But now tht I'm thought through things,I've decided.(:Sometimes I really dk what I should do,Or what I really want.I know what I'm supposed tuh do.But I can't bring myself tuh do it.It's like, I just don't like it, at all?I feel like my life is pointless?I don't go school anymore, I don't work.I don't do anything tht's productive.I just waste my life away everyday.Taking money from my mother,Thinking it's easy money, whn it, obviously isn't.Things like tht, y'know...I feel really bad.But, oh well.. I'm gna make up for it. (:I promise~ Now I just wna keep studying.Study like crazy, like mad.Indulge myself in books and words and formulas.I'll keep it deep down, inside.Somewhere there, in a dark corner, so insignificant.And never mention anything, any, shit tuh anyone.Never mention anybody tuh anyone tht I meet in future.Hopefully, luckily, tuh forget it myself, too.I'll just let it rest and take a break too.Bee asked me tuh take a break off everything.I said I did, and I don't wish tuh, anymore.But now, I've cleared everything tht was messing me up.I'll take a break.(:Everybody needs a period of time off rubbish.I guess it's time for mine? (:I'm tooo sick and tired of things like this.Things tht happens without a proper reason.Everything's explained with a 'idk' 'idk' 'idk'.I hate things without a proper explanation.Tuh me, it's stupid.And I won't want my life tuh be led this way, obviously.And yeah.I guess tht's all.I forget liao laaaa.LOL..And I think I'm madly weird somehow.I was supposed tuh feel anger, sadness, and stuffs, then.But all I was thinking, was 2 things.1; 'Wtf just happened? Damn random.'2; It's been so long, my dear. I missed your voice.Was thinking about you just moments ago, now you're here.See?I think I need a doctor y'know.-_-I was supposed tuh feel anger -_- Omg.Whatever.I'm gna be happy.I know I can.---And on a random side note~~~~If I ever fell asleep while texting you;Or if I ever dragged a phone call with you,Like if you wna end it, but I keep dragging and dreading tuh end it,It just meant tht I didn't wanted tuh say goodbye.If I've ever talked tuh you despite not feeling like chatting,Or despite being tired, tuh th extent of crying,As in like, tears flowing out of my tired eyes,It just means, you meant something tuh me.Or, If I get motherfucking paranoid for you;Or I scold you for not contacting me,Or I get angry at you for going MIA on me,Whatever la.It's just because you mean something tuh me.Lol.I mean, common sense.Who'd actually bother wasting time on people who you don't give a shit for?LOL.I'd rather spend those time tuh sleep ar.Shit also can -_-Even stone.And I told bee.I rather meet people who truly wants tuh see me,Truly wants tuh chat with me,And catch up with me,Than people who doesn't seem tuh give a shit about my presence.No matter how important tht someone is,If they don't give a shit about you,Don't give them any shit too.Bird shit dog shit cat shit hamster shit human faeces,ALL DON'T GIVE AR.Meet th ones who really care.You might not have th chance again.You won't know what's gna happen next.You'll regret.Living life is actually quite simple.Make sure you don't live and leave with regrets.Tht feeling, sure do suck.If wishes really would come true,I'd really wish for a happy-jiu-hao life.It's so awesome, isn't it?Oky.I should really end this post.And go tuh bed.I'm damn tired and super not feeling well.Kaninia eh!!!PUKI MAKAU LOBANG SQUARE!!!!LMAOLMAOLMAO!!!I met bee just now tuh catch up.And we laughed a whole lot.She taught me tht sentence too.I laugh until seh tired.Heh.She almost bbq me.-.-Flick butt dk how flick,Flick until playground on th th shelter thn drop down.Lucky my leg was abit slant, ARBO DROP ON MY LEG STRAIGHT.I still saw th 'fireworks' whn th butt landed.I straight WAAAAA WAAAAA WAAAAAAA WAAAAA WAAAAAAAAAA all th wayLMAO.Kept laughing LOL.And she kept ' YOUR MUM ' me!!!Asshole eh you, DIUUUU YOU.LOL.Thn went home, afterwards bibi wanted meet me at 880 with M and B.But I lazy ar, plus bee went ehub meet M Z and co.Thn I didn't go down, heh.Thn nua at sister's room etc.Until 1plus thn went over my room.Jitao shiok ar.I never fail tuh fall asleep on my sister's bed!!!HAHA.(L)---I've transferred some of th pictures intuh my phone.I'll look at them and miss those laughters.I'll miss those quarrels I always see,Those rubbish jokes,Etc.I'm sure things, places, words, songs, people,Will remind me of those happy times.It might hurt some times.But it's inevitable ar.It's fine, cuz it's my past, and I will accept all of my past,Despite it being really bad.And I'll be myself. Bee told me tuh be myself and accept everything.Yeah, accept it. (:烏雲遮蔽了天空 窗外又是陰雨時候傘下的戀人中 不再有你我手牽手一切過了太久我們的十字路口 下一站是誰在等候你我的方向盤卻向著相反的彼岸終點還是分開告別你我離開之後這回憶可以保留當初那美好的感動你說你記住了 不為彼此難過過各自的生活oh baby~~你答應我的我都記得但是你卻忘了你的承諾不是說好彼此都不再聯絡誰都別再犯錯 是我的固執讓你難過但是分手卻也無法選擇我走了以後 你要好好生活不要想我 也別再哭了轉載來自 ※Mojim.com　魔鏡歌詞網我們的十字路口 下一站是誰在等候你我的方向盤卻向著相反的彼岸終點還是分開告別你我離開之後這回憶可以保留當初那美好的感動你說你記住了 不為彼此難過過各自的生活oh baby~~你答應我的我都記得但是你卻忘了你的承諾不是說好彼此都不再聯絡誰都別再犯錯 是我的固執讓你難過但是分手卻也無法選擇我走了以後 你要好好生活不要想我 也別再哭了---'Goodbye to you my trusted friend.'Westlife ; Seasons in the sun.---Anyway, short post.Went down qt hawker meet arron darren gabriel junming and yongsheng few days back.Thn went over holland v slack awhile.Thn went over hawker meet barry and carabelle.Met uncle steven too.Thn awhile, idk what time ar.Arhjas michelle wilson jingyi came over as well.Sat at table eat talk chat etc.It was raining th whole day, mad cold!Talk rubbish until like, idk what time.Thn left holland.While walking tuh busstop, heard this song playing at some shop.Sang it with afew of them.Like fun only, ahahahaha.Went over cw with A D Ys.Awhile, Farah came down, like finally!!!!Thn slack until around 11.23pm?Ys left halfway.Chatted and stuffs as usual la.Thn trained back, bused home.Tht's all.Th day before yesterday, ( Now is thursday :D )Went out with mum and sy for breakfast at 4pm plus.Ate liao, walk around buy stuffs etc abcdefg.Went over coffee bean stone and stuffs.Thn finally, mum wna go home le.So went over tuh Clementi meet Boteo, Henry & th usual BCDHJy.Slack at clementi.B and C left around 9plus?Thn slack with th remaining...Until arrr.Around 10pm?Went over station meet Jonathan and another 2 of his friends.Thn went arcade awhile.Thn I left with D H and Jy.Trained back home.Reached home around 11.50pm.Huat ar.Early siak, heh heh.Tht's all~Long post.Tsk.I'm naggy and long winded laa~~Heh.BUHBYEZ.'Let's go all th way, tonight. No regrets, just Love.' This will always remind me of tht day.Th day we all had.Tht day whn nothing was wrong and everyone was only busy laughing.---Goodbye.Gna rest.SLEEP TILL I SHIOK ARRR.Macdonalds for breakfast later!Macspicy :DI bugged mum for it, HAHAHA.---I'm thinking if I should discuss about it with some people,Or just do it.---Shall we make a deal?Tuh meet again a year later or so, on this same date.9th September 2011? 2012?Idk.We'll see how I feel or what new stuffs comes tuh my mind on a new day,After I wake up later!:DD---I hate false facts.---And don't even think you know what I'm thinking.I don't really lie.But I'm good at keeping things tuh myself.I didn't lie.I just didn't voice out everything I felt.Like, what's th point?I don't see th point??????Taurus do things for th things they get in return.So whn there's no point, they won't even give a crap.(:And of cos.I thank you for those times.I know this whole thing is a goner.We're walking back on th road where we met on.Everything's undo-ing itself.Or rather you're undo-ing it.Everything's back tuh how it was months and months back.Guess this should be another clean cut?It's been so long since I had a cleancut.More than a year or two.This is a good training for myself.Tuh forget.Been so long since I am made tuh face this 'forgetting' thing.Ahahaha.I don't care already.Starting, damn sad.Thn cry.Thn anger overwhelmed me, cuz I felt tht pain, how much it hurt.Thn hate overtook me, cuz I didn't know why did this happen tuh me.Thn numbness knocked on my door for a visit, cuz tht pain went over my limit.Thn a wakeup call rang, and I came back tuh reality.I'm awake now.I'm fine.I'll be happy again.Bye.